New Site

It's been a long time since I've written...

I just recently found this blog again...

I will be transferring all of these secrets to the new site.


http://textingoursecrets.blogspot.com

Can't wait to see you there :D

Another update!

So it's been wonderful having these secrets come in, but for a while, there has been nothing new in my inbox! I hope you all send in some secrets to share, and pass the site on!!

I received a picture secret today!!!




as well as another secret:

I feel like the biggest hypocrite in the world.
I just want her to get better, in every way.
But I want to keep doing what I'm doing.
And I want to start the drugs she's doing.



Thanks!
Keep up the secret sending!

More secrets...

Sorry it took so long to post an update! I hadn't received any emails.... until now!

Here are some of the latest secrets...

* I just left six secrets in a library's copy of a Postsecret book.
I don't know if doing so helped me or not.

*I miss my best friend so much. And it hurts when people don't believe me that we were going to date. I just remember how passionately he kissed me the last day I saw him before he died.
I would give anything for him to come home.

*I wish she had died that same day, just so all this legal and guilt shit wouldn't be happening. She was fragile enough as it was. This didn't help. Guaranteed.

*Every time I have sex with a new guy, I avoid him in the morning because I'm terrified that he'll wake up thinking 'oh fuck, what have I done?', and I'll be able to sense his shame.

*im 15 and already my biggest fear is that i will end up alone.

* Sometimes I want to attempt suicide merely just to see who cares enough to come and see me whilst I'm hospitalised.
I'm not depressed or even that unhappy. I think I'm mainly just a melancholic and a tad curious.

*Two days ago I packed my bags and headed to a hotel room to get away from my parents and the constant negativity and arguing. I drove out of town only to cave and come back home. Only one person knew I was leaving and she said "let me call you right back." Sad thing is still no one else knows and no one even bothered to call me and ask how i was for those several hours. I think this reaffirms that if I went missing or something happened no one would notice except for the fact of not having me around to do things for them.



Once again, I thank each one of you for sharing your secrets with me, Please continue to share this site with your friends, and check back often for updates!

I'd love to have some picture secrets too!

:D
<3
Ali

Some personal secrets... and some shared...

I'm sorry I haven't posted anything in a bit..... No one has sent me in anything lately... So pass this site on to your friends! Let's start sharing the secrets with everyone!

As for the secrets I have received:

*I'm scared of turning into my mom... so I don't let the man who loves me into my life...

*I skydive with the secret hope that a malfunction will occur, and it will kill me. This way it will be a tragic accident.. instead of suicide.

*I wish that she would succeed in getting him to leave his wife for her. It might show her son that love is worth the risk... and it might show me that even in impossible situations, love is still possible.

*It's not that i don't bother it's because i can't deal with it


And for some personal things...
I was cruising around some secret sites.... and found this....
it was posted by someone with the same name as me... yet it wasn't me. It made me feel less alone....

Alyssa Rose wrote
at 4:50am on June 8th, 2008

I found everything that I could ever want wrapped up in something I could never have.

him: I love you Alyssa. We belong together.
him: I promise lyssy, i'm never ever letting you go
-- I miss that more than anything.




and then this also hit me pretty hard:

i truly had no idea that a connection like this was possible between two people. I'm 18, and i feel like its a fluke or I don't deserve it. I love you doesn't even begin to cover how i feel about you. Every single day for the last 2 months, one week, and one day, i have wondered if this happens a lot; do people everywhere feel like this about their high school boyfriends/girlfriends? Even in the early stages of our friendship last year I knew there was something drawing me to you, and I NEVER anticipated this. In three months, you will be 6 hours away, and Ill still be stuck here. even after a few short weeks, you were the one telling me how excited you were that i could come up to visit you on long weekends, you would be here for all the holidays. you have never doubted us and I hate that I do. I doubt that I will be able to go months without seeing you, when mere days now are torture. I have no worries that you will cheat on me.

Finally... My own secret for the day:

There are days when I sincerely want to crash my car into a tree, just so I can find out if my life is as much of a soap opera as it seems to be… and they only thing that stops me is the fear that once I’m in the hospital… you won’t be there by my side the way I wanted you to.

Pass on the site, and I welcome comments!
Thanks for reading!

Incredible Secrets...

Hello everyone! I'm back with some new secrets... some of these I can personally relate to, and I hope that you can find one that you relate to as well...

*I met the guy I thought I was going to marry. We split ip a month ago, I tried to move on but I'm afraid I won't find anyone else that I love as much.

*I really do like it. but I know if I admit it, you'll stop forcing me to go through it....

*I wish my dad would let me quit my job because its making me hate people.

*I enjoy the cartoons my son watches more than he does

*I had a feeling my 17 yr old friend would sleep with our 40 yr old, married teacher. She did. 3 years later, I still feel guilty for not being able to stop her.

*Never give up, even when it seems impossible. Because the second you do is when it starts to work out.

*There are times I want to push him into oncoming traffic, but I know I would just end up following him.


and then this email came in late last night,

*a few days ago i had sex with my boss, on a conference call the next morning he bitched about what my stores location was doing wrong. i was mad at him, so i cut myself for the first time in 4 years. we had sex again last night, and he ran his hand over the cuts on my arm. it was odd.

This one truly affected me, because I was into cutting after my father died in 2001. I cut for 5 years before a wonderful friend intervened and saved me...
I'd love to see some positive comments to help this woman back from the darkness of self mutilation....

I urge anyone that feels compelled to try some sort of self mutilation understands that it's not only harmful to you, it's also harmful to those who love you. When they see the scars... it brings them pain too.

There are a bunch of wonderful places to turn to for help and support,

http://dailystrength.org/c/Self-Injury/support-group

http://www.recoveryourlife.com/

and of course, you could always email me at
Shareyoursecret@ymail.com

I'd love to be there for you.

I was emailed another secret today... and wanted to share it with you...
This woman could use some support, and I would love to see what positive things that you, my readers, have to offer.


"I am married for over 2 years. My husband had a good friend of his J. J was married as well to H.

Well, J use to flirt with me and we ended up having an affair that lasted over a year. I ended up getting pregnant and had an ab.

My husband has been so good to me. He was there with me for the procedure and he has been so good to me since he found out. We had so many problems with our marriage, I tried to talk with him but we would end up yelling and screaming so I eventually gave up. He just didn't seem to get the point anymore. We have been seeing each other for 9 years (10 in May) so even though we were married only 2 years, we are the only one's we've ever dated. My husband even told me "I just figured you'd never do anything so I was just like whatever" He just blew it all off.

But since my ab my life has fallen apart. I understand I made a mistake, I made a bad choice but that doesn't help the way I feel. I feel worse for what I've done to my husband and my child.

So I'm a bad wife, baby killer (of a wanted baby), faliure at my job and school because afterwards I just quit going all together. I hated my job so I quit. "



Continue to Share Your Secrets,
and Help others everyday,
Ali

Thanks for Sending In Your Secrets!

Thank you to everyone who sent in a secret, I appreciate it!


*I wish I had the courage to let myself fall in love

*Theres a guy in my life who waited 4 years to tell me because he was afraid. Sometimes I think he was worth the wait, other times I think he was too scared.

*My boyfriend moved to mexico today... and I am so sad, but I almost feel free.

*I tell myself everyday that he can do better so that when he finally sees this, I'm somewhat ready

*I'm obsessed with losing weight and i dont know when ill be happy with myself

*There is always madness in love. but there is always reason in madness.

*I'm not really into football, but I pretend to be and I watch it with his dad to impress him... it worked.

*I'm falling in love... and not with my boyfriend. Its with someone who lives 4500 miles away whom I have never met.

*I wish his suicide attempt worked.




Until Next Time.... Keep Sharing your Secrets
Email them to me at: shareyoursecret@ymail.com